Disbelief

2 meanings for a single word but I am writing in the context of inability to accept something that is real or true. Not on faith..I am Islam..we believe in Allah The Almighty..

Ever imagined that we had everything all figured out? All the plans laid and all the hopes forecasted? But in the end, it was not meant to be. Kusangkakan panas berpanjangan, sekali tengah hari hujan daaa...

My inside are torn apart actually..will take time for the rebuild..and I dont reckon it to be easy..well, to be frank, I do not where to start..I do not know whether should I start either..

This is not me at all..writing in such lingo..but come to think of it..it was never wrong, we are just being human..we serve Him..Allah approves, denies and so much more as He creates the universe..

It was a hell of a roller-coaster ride, these years, but like it or not, even if the train was gone, the railings still always be there..but, is this the end or not? Wallahu'alam..we never know..

Can't Work

Really felt loosing the grit of working..Lots of to-do-list today but none of the body parts and not even mind focused to complete it. Listened to couple of Ed's songs, particularly Perfect and some Indonesian's band's. To sooth things a bit.

What is this, actually?

Felt like having a guitar right now and tuck myself away in a cave. With light of course, otherwise, no point.

Feels like sh*t, really.

Don't know until when. Fingers crossed.

Malam yang Dingin..

Malam yang Dingin..probably because of cuaca kot..or probably because of hati..I cant say much on what we feel inside..it is rahsia Allah..not mine..I can only control and contain the feelings..with all my might..that is what I can do now..

Heal..

Heal urself..dont depend to others to heal yours..u are what u feel..only u can decide to empower urself to change..when God says Kun Fayakuun..u cant change the outcome..

Life..

Life is full of choices..it is like a box of chocolate..u never know what u gonna get..u always have a choice in doing something..to be positive (happy) or negative (down) about it..in the end..it is ur choice..not others..ramli ms pun cakap kt nabil..be urself..u pay ur own bills..not others..

This is not considered as merepek..this is me..up to u all to consider as what..

Dah mcm lagu baz luhrmann plak..

Feel like writing..

As Salam All..

I just feel like writing something. Hujan ribut kat luar ofis ni..Banyak pokok tumbang..kompem jalan jem gila..So aku pun mula menulis..Bukannya xde kerja..Sebab terlampau banyak sangat kerja sampai xtau nk mula kat mana..

All my team members resigned including immediate superior..some opt for VSS, some transferred to other Divisions making their effort matters and some left for betterment in life..Unlike me which is still in the same paradigm that would not shift to a different level..

Sometimes i do wonder that is this really happening.. which is already happened..waste of time thinking..waste of time for you to read also..Hape la org ni..Tido lagi baik..

In the current economy, i felt like it would be risky to grasp another job..or i am being too conservative/careful..Goyang kot..Wan Emdibi punya scandal..RM pun jatuh..Price of goods constantly rising.. Tengok la..A lot of work to do in office..but still..we need to think about all this crap also..

Hadoii..cakap byk2 pun x guna..we are not God to dictate who is right or wrong..we are Abdullah..so just embrace life..It is what it is..Just face it..Insha Allah..there is something in for us..

Bye

Thanks

I'm Touched

As Salam..

Sangat tersentuh..tengah tengok AJL29.. Aku xtau pun yg Lagu Roman Cinta akan dinyanyikan oleh orang lain..bini aku la cakap..mcm2 konflik nk nyanyikan lagu ni..tetapi aku rasa Edry buat keputusan yg tepat dan terbaik..Caliph Buskers mmg terbaik..The moment dia continue selepas break dalam 10 saat masa chorus lagu tu..mata ni x bleh nk tahan air mengalir..Bini aku dh tengok aku dah.."u, x yah la nangis..hahahaha!!" kata bini aku..ni kalau zaid tau ni mmg kene la bahan 7 hari 7 malam..

Rasa mcm nk berdiri je sambil tgk tv..punya la hormat aku kt caliph buskers ni..just perfect..

Aku rasa la..AJL kali mi adalah yg terbaik so far..semua lagu2 best n persembahan semua aku rasa terbaik..cuma sayang..lagu Akim Mewangi x masuk..Sayang sekali..lagu faveret aku tuh. Kalau ade lagu akim..aku x kesah la ku putih nak jadi penaja utama..hahahahah..apa kaitan? Bini aku cakap cuba bg kt aku..boleh jadi putih ke x? Kang muka putih tangan hitam..jadik dayang senandung la plak..dah kene beli produk lagi satu lak nk putihkn tangan..hehe ngutuk je..ok la..achi la..Kene la beli dulu baru tau boleh putih ke x..

Tp antara pilihan aku untuk menang malam ni adalah lagu Roman Cinta atau Di Pintu Syurga..dua2 ni sangat best..

Ok jom..sambung tgk..pas2 tdo..pas2 esok g keje..

Gudnite..As Salam..

Apo nak dikato?

As Salam..

Lama x menulis..Dah jadi malas plak..dahsyat penyakit M ni..

Tgh x berapa sihat ni..demam sejak jumaat..xtau demam terkejut ke sebab hujan ke..Tapi dh kebah la demamnya..tinggal batuk sikit..apa x nya..pas mkn ubat batuk, g isap rokok..mmg la..

Sambil tengok Gegar Vaganza final ni..Ifa Raziah vs Haleeda nyanyi lagu fanatik KRU..gile semangat ifa raziah sakit2 pon bagi yg terbaik..final la katakan..kalau menang dpt 100k..jihan selamba je belasah diorang..awal2 dengar la jugak perkataan fanatik fanatik fanatik..lama2 dh jadi penat ni penat ni penat ni..boleh?

Yg sebelum lagu ni lagi best..Khairil Azrin (aku xtau la ejaan aku btol ke x?) melamar Hanis Zalikha Live on Air and On Stage lagi tu..siap ada slot khas lagi tu utk diorang..kompem kawen pasni sponsorship belambak datang..tapi tu la aku penya persoalan..kalau Hanis Zalikha kata No camane..bini aku cakap dia couple kot..hek eleh..tapi xpe la..hanis zalikha dah kata Yes InsyaAllah..so..ramai2 la kita sob sob sbb melepas..hahaha mcm dlm twitter..

Qu Puteh..barulah puteh..itu la dia punya penaja..aku nk komen tp kang x pasal2 aku kene saman lak..simpan je la..

Aku nk cerita psl trip aku ke Melaka hari tu..tp tgh menaip guna ipad ni..nak upload gamba byk phone tgh charge..next entry la citer psl melaka..best gak trip tu..

X sabar2 aku nk g keje esok..dh berapa lama cuti ni sejak rabu minggu lepas..boring xtau nak watpe..ade 44 email masuk phone ni..aku malas gila nk tgk..esok je la aku reply..sorry boss..i cuti ni..

Ooo x aku lupa nk ucap tahniah kt Shiro sbb dapat 5 bintang masa maharaja lawak mega baru ni..mmg lawak bila Tok Adi bercakap ngan Fazura..beterabur iman dia..hahahha..bukan goyang iman..berterabur terus..hampas kelapa betul..

Ok la..dah nk tdo ni..esok keje..ooo best lak lagu One Sweet Day yg sam innuendo, shima n sorang lg nyanyi nih..kalah mariah carey n boyz II men..hehe

Ok As Salam..gudnite

Serigala yang Besar dan Jahat..Boleh??

As Salam..

Tibe2 semangat lak aku nk tulis entry malam2 buta nih..Walhal aku xtau pun nak tulis pasal apa..Asyik nak tulis pasal ofis je..nanti boring plak..so aku nak citer la pasal pesta buku yang aku pergi awal bulan hari tu..Big Bad Wolf..

Still x faham kenapa nama dia Big Bad Wolf? Tertanya jugak aku kat Pn Hafilah tapi biasala, jawapan dia," Entah ek!". Boleh?

BBW ni dia wat kat Mines International Exhibition & Convention Centre (MIECC)..Boleh plak aku tulis nama penuh tempat ni malam2 buta ni..orang nak cepat lagi mau tulis panjang2..Macam tahun2 lepas, diorang wat kat sini..tapi 1st time aku gi dulu, dia buat kat MAEPS Serdang,,

Yang bestnya, diorang operate 24hours untuk avoid terlalu ramai orang pergi ke event nih..Aku pergi kol 4 pagi kot..Memang cantik la..x ramai orang..

Event ni mmg phenomenon la for general readers and for enthusiasts..Setahun sekali je dia buat..Orang berebut nak datang because buku2 dia jual murah gile kot..RM 8, RM5 and RM3 pun ade..Wife aku tahun ni cari buku untuk anak je..Aku mcm biasa la..konon2 nak jadi pakar motivasi, so cari la buku self help,,tapi kali ni aku ade beli beberapa novel termasuklah hobbit punya series and The Hunger Games..Aku nk cuba baca buku2 yang telah difilemkan kat layar perak..

Tapi yang Hobbit ni ada sikit boring la bila baca..bukan apa..tulisan dia kecik gile..pas2 rapat2..Hampeh..so aku hold dulu..aku baru baca dalam 30 pages..nanti aku sambung..sekarang ni aku baca novel Detective FBI Alex Cross vs The Butcher..pergh best wa cakap lu..

Habes dekat RM 200 gak la..Bukan apa, tahun depan boleh claim rebate masa e Filing..Bukan aku abes pun baca semua. Buku yang beli 2 tahun lepas pun x abes baca lagi..Hahhahh..Kalau sape2 nak pinjam buku bagitau kt aku..aku leh bagi pinjam..nak sewa pun boleh..xde masalah..Wife aku pun ada banyak novel yang Shopaholic punya series tu..Beli banyak2, poyo je, baca sikit je..Hahhaha sorry u..

Banyak gila buku..Kalau nk datang lain kali, bawak lori terus..angkut semua..ngan orang2 skali

Btw..Zaid MC lak semalam..Hampeh boring gile opis xde mamat ni..Rindu lak..Lagi skali aku nak ingatkan kt korang, aku bukan gay ya..ini fake contractual friendship bak kata Rahimi..Kalau Catherin, dia kata ini BROMANCE. Satgi aku upload gamba dia buat muka kagum tengok TV..Ternganga mulut dia, lalat siap keluar masuk lagi ingatkan port baik nak sembunyi.,

Ko tengok dia punya kagum ngan TV tu sebab Celcom Sponsor..Hahah

Julia pun sama..posing poyo je..Kak Maz nak main sembunyik2 plak..Owh Faizah baru sahaja resign..Good luck for your future career path and undertakings ya..Ada rezeki kita jumpa kt Satay Willy..InsyaAllah

Ok la..time for me to tido..

Goodnite..

As Salam